My hand begins to tremble
As my finger starts to squeeze
The barrels to my brow now
As I rest upon my knees
Tears slowly seeping from the corners
Of my eyes though unable to
Openly cry. Throat dry
Because I can’t control the war that rages
On inside that which is I
Take a shallow breath, release a sigh
As the hammer falls and the bullet fly’s
Ah, the pointlessness of suicide.
Living in a dream land
Realities become too much of a test
Longing for freedom
But none is found until the eternal rest
Smoke fills the sky
From the lungs of all ages
Damaged is hope
It’s burning like brittle pages
As our vision becomes blurred
Because we choose not to see
Tinted has become everything
Once held sacred by you and me
So line up for the slaughter
Buy your tickets now
No longer a point to be made
By questioning how
One too many steps have already been taken
Down the dark staircase toward our end
And there’s no backtracking
When the devil’s called you friend
And nothing at all can be done
When it’ll all be over soon
There’s no Jake with his bean stalk
There’s no reaching for the moon
Long I have fought,
Knowing I could never win
Tainted with too much passion
And sin
Though I remain hopeful,
Heart always true
Living in daydreams of
Me and you.
But alas it’s all for nothing
You’ll never be mine
Because an old copper penny
Has no place with a shinny new dime.
The summer lingers on, yearning
As the wind sighs, blowing country grass to and fro
The sun shines from up above,
As clouds cast their shadows upon the world below
And the cycle continues moving slowly
So willing eye’s can see, embrace life, every breath
And its beauty
For if not you’ll wake one day filled with regret
At having never tried, at having never met
-life and all it’s wonders, life so wild and free,
And above all else you’ll remain forever blind
To the knowledge of me.
